“I see what you’ve done, your hard, hard work, your refusal to quit. I know you can’t stomach evil, that you weed out apostolic pretenders. I know your persistence, your courage in my cause, that you never wear out. But you walked away from your first love—why? What’s going on with you, anyway? Do you have any idea how far you’ve fallen? A Lucifer fall! Turn back! Recover your dear early love. No time to waste, for I’m well on my way to removing your light from the golden circle. You do have this to your credit: You hate the Nicolaitan business. I hate it, too. Are your ears awake? Listen. Listen to the Wind Words, the Spirit blowing through the churches. I’m about to call each conqueror to dinner. I’m spreading a banquet of Tree-of-Life fruit, a supper plucked from God’s orchard.”

i am letting these questions roll around in my head today: why? what’s going on with you, anyway? do you have any idea how far you’ve fallen? are your ears awake?

i need recovery. i feel like i need to love the church. the church has a husband, and HIS name is JESUS.  the church doesn’t need a lover.  JESUS wants me to love HIM, and i have a tendency to love the church instead. the church is never going to speak to me. are my ears awake to the sounds the church is making, or the WIND WORDS? are my ears awake?