my words

matthew 12:34-37

“You have minds like a snake pit! How do you suppose what you say is worth anything when you are so foul-minded? It’s your heart, not the dictionary, that gives meaning to your words. A good person produces good deeds and words season after season. An evil person is a blight on the orchard. Let me tell you something: Every one of these careless words is going to come back to haunt you. There will be a time of Reckoning. Words are powerful; take them seriously. Words can be your salvation. Words can also be your damnation.”

my words. oh man. that cuts to the heart quickly. i thought i could be saved by praying a prayer.  oh wait.  YOU never said that.  so my words matter?  not even my intent, or what i want to tell myself my intent was?  my heart, not the dictionary gives meaning to my words.  so if i substitute a more offensive word for one that is less offensive, but my intent is still to offend, then that’s not ok?  i mean, i know it’s not ok, but that’s how i was raised.  i need YOU to renew my mind on this one.  i am the complaining, critical, gossip.  i am more careless with my words than my wit, and that has too change.

honestly, the hardest thing to say right now is this (i know it’s stupid and it shouldn’t be, but if i’m honest, when everyday normal interactions occur, this is what i need to admit):  i want to be like YOU more than i want people to think i am funny.